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Grinching


Lol. Sometimes I crack myself up. Especially after a couple of drinks. Anywho, It’s that magical day of the year, Friday. A lot of people are celebrating Christmas, for me it’s a chance to relax.

My house is always cold. In the summer, it’s hard for me to tell how warm it is outside because it stays so cold in here. Right now it’s 75 degrees in here and it’s freaking December. What concerns me about global warming is that it may be worse than we realize. The reason for that is because of the Climate Agreement recently signed by 195 countries. Since when have you known that many countries to cooperate on something? Yeah exactly. We have reached a fork in the road of our destiny. All it takes is for people to have the courage to trust the facts and act.

This has been a very mind blowing few weeks for me processing all of the scientific achievements that have been made recently. There’s been a lot of media concerning the 100th anniversary of Einstein’s Theory of Relativity. Einstein is one of my heroes. When I think of him sitting in a room putting together the ideas that lead to a new understanding of gravity in his head, that just does me. I don’t live too far from his house in Princeton. I go there sometimes. It feels weird. It’s hard to imagine such a person existed.

Also I finally wrapped my head around the concepts of electromagnetism. That gave me issues for a long time. I couldn’t grasp the relationship between a field and a particle. I get it now and it kinda gives me goosebumps to think that all of reality is nothing more than intersecting fields.

So, Grinching..I define that as being hateful on Christmas and trying to destroy the mood. I’m an atheist but I get the concept and how people feel about it. The thing is, everybody does it. People that celebrate have a love hate relationship with Christmas. It’s weird in another way from my perspective as to how people do things that they feel are ridiculous but do them anyway. It’s really fascinating. It’s like a real life version of Invasion of the Body Snatchers.

 

 

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Perspectives..


It’s 10:23pm, Wednesday Dec, 23rd…It’s 66 degrees out. The slow boil is on.

The weather is getting more and more extreme. It’s hard to imagine why people deny climate change, but then again I live in a country where they burned people at the stake.

My mind is blown at the moment. 2 physicists were awarded the Nobel Prize for Physics for measuring the oscillation of neutrinos and proving they have mass. To understand why, you have to consider the size of a neutrino. It is estimated that 3 of them would equal one millionth the mass of an electron. We are talking a particle that is ridiculously smaller than a part of an atom. How the fuck do you measure something that small? Deep.

 

I have a couple of things to share..one is a slideshow..it’s not a big deal. I’m just testing a few options for video since I stopped paying for hosting here. It’s too expensive, plus with all the options there are for cloud storage, audio and video sites, it doesn’t really make sense.

Below that is some more stuff that I’m working on. I reposted an earlier track because I made some changes and cleaned up the levels. I hope you enjoy!

 

 

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Because of You


A random memory:

I was in my teens, still living with my mom. There was this really pretty girl that lived across the street that I liked. I’d see her on occasion. It had gotten to the point where we’d exchange hellos and waves. One day she was walking her dog.. a little poodle, across the street from me. He apparently was walking too slow for her so she picked him up. As she passed my house, I waved at her and she waved back. Her dog saw me and jumped out of her arms running towards me..right in front of a car. The car tried to stop but the dog was hit by the front tire and pinned it, skidding a little with it’s boddy trapped underneath. She screamed running into the street. The driver backed up and she was able to scoop the dog up..it was still alive but in bad shape. I stood there mortified, helpless and totally speechless. She scurried home crying uncontrollably.

We never spoke again and i never got her name

I have no idea why that popped in my head but I figured I’d share..

I also have a couple of tracks for you to check out. Hope you like them..

 

 

Mirrors…


This is a track that is still in progress that I’ve posted but I wanted to share a little background as to its meaning.

This song represents a dual perspective of a love triangle, that of the guy who is in love with someone who belongs to someone else, and the guy that is in the relationship with the woman who is the object of his affection. It represents the internal struggle of a man who has come to the realization that he must walk away from his feelings of a woman who is taken out of respect even though he sees that she feels the same way. It also represents the lover who sees that his woman is in love with another and becomes aware of his failings. The mirror represents facing the truth about one’s self and accepting the consequences of their actions or inaction.

As with all my songs, this expresses a real life situation that I have faced.

I hope this adds to your enjoyment of the piece

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The End of an Era


As I mentioned before, I have totally changed direction with respect to what I’m putting in my body. So to that end, I put together a collection of some of the dishes I’ve made in the past. Some of them are just ridiculous. It was interesting looking back at some of them realizing that I will never eat some of those things again. It was delicious though..lol

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2 Drops in a Bucket


How are you today mein kinder? This is how my dance teacher in high school used to greet us. It’s odd that I would remember that, but I have been known to retain bits of totally random useless information. Go figure.

The other day 10/21/15 was “Back to the Future Day”. I’m quite sure you’re sick of hearing about it but it struck me that in many cases whenever we have predicted how advanced we as a people will be, we always come up short. This speaks volumes on our perception of ourselves versus the reality of very slow progress. We are capable of way more than is our current situation. Today we could end hunger, poverty, war, pollution, racism, sexism..etc, but there are those in power that use these things to their advantage to stay in power. It makes me wonder if we as a people will survive our own greed.

Anyway..I just wanted to break the silence to reach out and connect I also have a couple of joints I’m working on that I want to share. The first is a combo of 2 tracks, one a house flavored track called “Get it Started”. It’s a little tribute to mi preciosa DJ and Radio host Shelli Diego. The second movement is a little piece I put together called NetFlix and Chill..I’d been hearing that term a lot and decided to try and write some lyrics around it based on the sexual tension of that situation. The other piece is just something that came from being in a situation where many of us have been, being in love with someone that’s involved with someone else that you know is feeling you.

Hope you like them..peace

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Rumors of my death


Yeah, it’s been a minute since I’ve posted yet again. I’ve been going through a lot of changes. I got real sick a month or so ago. I was with my cousin in Sam’s. I started feeling a little lightheaded and I decided to check my blood pressure. It was really high.
I joked to him that I was going to die, but secretly I was really concerned. The next day I woke up with the worst headache of my life. I couldn’t swallow and my face was swollen. It turns out that I was suffering from sinusitis, along with two inner ear infections and swollen glands. I was running a fever, and I was suffering from vertigo. I decided right then and there if I would survive, I would do everything in my power to take better care of myself. Being as how I couldn’t eat anything anyway, I went on a liquid diet.
At first I was just drinking water because I couldn’t make it to the store, but when I did, I decided that I would start juicing again.
The best thing for headaches or a hangover is vegetable juice. Tell your friends.
After a couple of days of juicing, I started feeling a little bit better, but I was still very weak. Since I wasn’t eating anything solid, I decide to take the opportunity to lose some weight.
My diet consisted of vegetable juice and fruit juice. if I felt hungry in between, I would have a glass of really cold water with lime juice. This curbed my appetite tremendously.
After 14 days I lost 25 pounds. I was exceptionally weak but I felt like a new person was emerging inside of me.
To help with my sinuses, I made sure that I stayed in a room with an air purifier. It was, I realized, September, the beginning of allergy season for me, which is always major drama.
As the pounds melted away, I started feeling myself having greater mobility. I didn’t realize how fat I had gotten. when i started, I was 255 lbs. Today I am 225.
I have also decided to give up meat. This is something that I’ve tried before for a short period of time, but I decided to make a permanent life style change to eliminate meat from my diet. I also decided to give up sugar, which is something I had done before but kind of fell back into.
When you embark on any diet, you suddenly become aware of the things you can’t have. After a period of time, you will also become aware of how much pressure and brainwashing is in advertising to influence your eating habits. You literally cannot watch any sports without there being an ad for something that is completely unhealthy.
Getting back to my story, I had a migraine that lasted me for 36 hours. I know exactly how long it lasted because I did not sleep during that entire time. I literally thought it was the end for me. This caused me to start thinking about what preparations I have made for dealing with my death. Feeling that it was a strong possibility, I started taking notes to send to my sister on how to handle whatever remained of my assets. After making that recording I was totally bummed out and a little disappointed, so I decided that I was not ready to die just yet. My mission would be to let nature bring me back. I would use every trick in the book I knew to get me back on my feet.
After the first two weeks of liquids only, I gradually started adding solids back to my diet. I would have one solid a day. I started with a banana, then oatmeal. I would prepare the oatmeal plain, adding a little raw honey. in between each meal I continue to have the cold lime water to cut down on my cravings.
The pounds melted off of me, but I felt very weak. Concerned that I was moving too fast I decided to have egg whites and tunafish as a protein substitute. I know this is a violation of my strict no meat policy but it was only temporary to regain my strength. I felt it was OK as long as I wasn’t eating red meat. this is where I am now. Ultimately I am going to go back to vegetables only because I know that it is much healthier for me.
There is an argument that people repeat when it comes to not eating meat. They always say that we have canine teeth which is designed to tear flesh. Using that argument you might as well say we should still be climbing trees because we have toenails.
I have done a lot of research online to get recipes that I can enjoy during my transition. For my meat substitute I am going to use tofu going forward. there is a psychological barrier that you have to overcome when you’re making dramatic changes to your eating habits. Most of that comes from the influences that I mentioned earlier. When you step back and take a look at what food companies are doing to you, you will understand that brainwashing is a real thing.
Most of you have probably seen videos of what happens to cows and pigs in slaughter houses. If you haven’t, I suggest that you Google some YouTube videos and get educated. When I see people on line in the drive-through’s, to me they are no different than the pigs and cows being led to slaughter that they are consuming. The food industry is one vast system of control that is designed to sustain itself even at the risk of killing people. Why? Because people are a replenishable source. Their goal is to make money anyway they can. Any attempts that we have made as citizens to get them to identify what they are really feeding us have been thwarted or completely ignored. The next time you buy juice in the supermarket, look at the ingredients. In some cases you will see things like natural flavors. Think about it, what are they talking about? That means absolutely nothing as far as detail is concerned but they are allowed to get away with it.
So this is where I am right now mentally. It’s amazing that as you grow older, you may go through a big change in your perspective of life, but you never expected to happen again and again. The things I see now, I am shocked that I was ever blind to.

As is customary, I am going to share with you some photos that I’ve taken, and some music.
Get It Started (NetFlix and Chill)
I hope that in your lifetime you experience the power of enlightement. By enlightenment I don’t mean a greater understanding of a concept, but an awareness that changes your view of everything around you. Peace